...5 days

So in 5 days I will be leaving for Montana to take part in the School of Biblical Studies with Youth With a Mision (YWAM). I will be gone till July, but coming home for Christmas.

After I completed my DTS with YWAM in 2007, I knew that I wanted to continue on with YWAM but was not sure what that meant-if I was going to staff a DTS, or do another school. While in England in 07 many of our speakers had completed the SBS program and spoke highly of it, and that always interested me but also intimidated me. This program is really intense and I will be reading through the Bible about 5 times in 9 months which sounds crazy!! Before I left for India this past January God was putting SBS on my heart and I asked God to be really clear with me on this trip if I was meant to do an SBS. And guess what-He did! I had a hunger to read the bible, many people were asking me questions about the Bible that i was not able to answer and i did not like that-i knew i needed more wisdom and knowledge-especially because i have a missions heart and would like to go into full time missions someday.

And now i am here, I leave in 5 days, taking the train to Montana. I am extremely scared and feel pretty inadequate and not sure if i am going to make it through-but at the same time there is this voice saying "Breanne you can do this, I am calling you there and have so much i want to teach you." God has been so clear that i am meant to go Montana. He has not closed any doors and everything is working out financially and with all the paperwork. These next few days are going to be really busy and overwhelming. I am learning that i need to take things day by day, and not be overwhelmed but at the same time i should not procrastinate.

My heart is very clear, but my mind is scared, i know i am meant to do this despite my worrying. I cannot wait to read and dive into the word with a whole bunch of others. I cannot wait for a fresh start, meeting new people, to see how God is going to shape me and form me. I want to truly encounter the love of God, through the wonderful gift (Bible) he has given to us.

I pray that God will calm and open my spirit, give me excitement and let me have peace of mind..